Getting back into it

It’s been a while. Again. I had a baby in January—he’s beautiful and growing like crazy and I love him more than anything else in the world. He’s also eating up all of my time and my motivation. The shawl pattern got placed on the backburner in favor of moving and a new job, and then due to disinterest during the surprise pregnancy. Now it’s put away, waiting for my motivation to grow back… maybe when he’s in school.

I am trying to get back to my writing now though; it’s easier to sneak in some typing on the netbook during his short naps than it is to haul out the yarn bowl and make hand notations in the pattern as I go. My difficulty is focusing on something to write about. I come up with all sorts of topics while I’m out on the porch, smoking and enjoying momentary silence, but as soon as I come in to attend  to baby’s various needs, all of those ideas evaporate.

Thank goodness we have an enclosed porch. Winter has been cold and windy this year, and I’m glad that I don’t have to actually stand out in it to go outside and try to settle my hormones and reign in my mind. I like to stare out the screen door and monitor the weather. Snow, sleet, rain. Wind hard enough to shake the windows. Sunny with a ninety percent chance of birds.

There’s a name stamped into the concrete walkway up to the door: E.R. Thompson. I searched the name online and found only one reference related to the town I live in. He was a treasurer secretary in 1912 for the Independent Order of Odd Fellows, and that’s all I know about him other than the fact that he used to own this house. I find myself standing at the door wondering who he was, did he always go by ‘E.R.’, what was his real name? Edwin, Eugene, or Eustace? I’m not even sure that he was a he. Why not Elizabeth, Elaine, or Eloise? How much of the house I’m living in was here when he (or she) lived here? I have no way of knowing, but I wonder anyway.

I’m trying to ease myself back into writing so that I might be able to help my husband support us and still be able to stay home and take care of my son. I filled out my W-9 today to work for an online content company. Here’s hoping the baby lets me get some work done—I’m surprised that he’s let me get this much writing, but oh, he’s stirring. Time to change a diaper, fill his belly, or just reassure him that yes, I’m still here.


Let’s see where THIS goes…

Goddamn it, I miss writing. I also miss motivation, and that second post down there– it makes me feel a little ashamed, for a few reasons… ><

Unfortunately, the ‘motivation’ I’m currently in possession of really only gets me to this point^. Yeah, that half-assed attempt at an introductory paragraph that introduces, well, really nothing except tedious self-pity. This blog was originally going to be nothing more than a dumping-ground for patterns I’d written (which I mentioned below, but I’m hoping you didn’t actually read that post), and given my apathy in THAT department, it contains a single pattern. Maeve (that’s what I decided to call my shawl) will eventually be here, sometime in the future. It is a MUCH more interesting pattern than the headband, but that’s all I’ve got for now.

At any rate, I spent the entire day bursting with half-ideas for turning the ‘dumping ground’ into an actual creative endeavor in and of itself, absolutely certain that, “Yeah! This idea is going to force me to start writing again, and maybe I can even realize my dreams… whatever they are. Surely I can use one of these awesome nebulous clouds of inspiration and my brain will just run with it!” Yeah…

On the bright side, it appears that the only post here that gets any traffic at ALL is the one with the headband in it, so I doubt anyone’s been bored to tears or irritated enough to leave a nasty comment yet. So that’s good. Also positive: I’ve decided to swallow my dislike of the ‘shift’ key for a while. Looks less childish this way, or something. I may revise my opinion on this matter in the future.

That is all.


P.S. The photos on this blog, they are MINE. I took them with a real, honest-to-fucking-god 35mm FILM camera and scanned them into a computer at college so that I would be able to use them on teh interwebs. Got that? MINE.

getting somewhere?

after a rather loooong hiatus, i’m returning to my blog for a moment…

…and immediately can’t think of anything to type about.


isn’t that just like me? given that i started this thing solely to have a place to publish a pattern, i suppose i could talk a bit about what i’m working on. i’m having kind of a productive burst lately– i’ve completed quite a few more projects than average in the last couple months. oh, and i’m writing a new pattern.


it’s a lacy shawl, and i’m pretty happy with it at the moment. it was easier than i expected it to be, actually– harder too, in some ways. at any rate, i’ve completed the prototype, critiqued it, disliked it (mostly due to the yarn i used for the prototype, which was chosen for the sheer yardage at my disposal more than color, texture, or drape), loved it and made notes and wrote everything down as i went. the reactions i’ve gotten from people i’ve shown the prototype to have been interesting. it’s been described to me as looking like butterfly wings, bat wings, and a spider web– all of which go along with the associations it brings for me.  more on that when i actually post it for the world to see.


i’m in alpha testing of the written pattern now.  once i’ve worked the kinks i can find out of the pattern, i’ve got a few friends and family who’ve volunteered to test it for me.  it’ll end up here when it’s through that beta testing, and i hope people like it.


OK– my foot is asleep. time to click ‘Publish’.


first meander – CRO-LORIMETRY

well, i’ve resisted thus far, but it’s over. now i have a blog…

so far though, it only exists so that i can post the pattern i modified from this one: link. i tried knitting calorimetry a few months ago and failed miserably. i’m still far more skilled at crochet than knitting, so i wanted to try crocheting it, but i love the way the knit version looks and didn’t want to lose that. hers is a crochet version of the calorimetry pattern on knitty, but when i made it it was WAY too big for me, and i thought i could make it fit better/ look more like calorimetry when it’s on your head.  i ended up modifying the one at ‘reclaiming the home’ pretty heavily, i think, so i’m posting my modifications here at the demand of a few people over at ADHD on ravelry. 😉

and now, without further meander, here is my CRO-LORIMETRY:

General Notes:

This modification is crocheted in the back loops only to give it a more ‘ribbed’ look and to make it more stretchy. I’ve got a pretty small head, apparently, so if you don’t you may want to add a few more rows to 15-26. This pattern barely used a third of the skein of ‘I love this yarn’-stripes I used.


Ch– chain

dc– double crochet

st/sts– stitch/ stitches

dc2tog– double crochet 2 stitches together

Using U.S. size H hook and worsted-weight yarn, CH 4.

1- Working in back loops only, dc in each st across. Ch 2, turn.(2 sts)

2- Work 2 dc in each st across. Ch 2, turn. (4 sts)

3- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (4 sts)

4- Dc in first st, 2 dc each in next 2 sts, dc in last st. Ch 2, turn. (6 sts)

5- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (6 sts)

6- Dc once in first 2 sts, 2 dc each in next 2 sts, dc once in each of last 2 sts. Ch 2, turn. (8 sts)

7- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (8 sts)

8- Dc once in first 3 sts, 2 dc each in next 2 sts, dc once in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (10 sts)

9- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (10 sts)

10- Dc once in first 4 sts, 2 dc each in next 2 sts, dc once in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (12 sts)

11- Dc in each st. ch 2, turn. (12 sts)

12- Dc once in first 5 sts, 2 dc each in next 2 sts, dc once in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (14 sts)

13- Dc in each st. ch 2, turn. (14 sts)

14- Dc once in first 6 sts, 2 dc in next st, dc once in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (15 sts)

15-26- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (15 sts)

27- Dc once in first 6 sts, dc2tog, dc in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (15 sts)

28- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (14 sts)

29- Dc once in first 5 sts, dc2tog, dc2tog, dc in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (12 sts)

30- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (12 sts)

31- Dc in first 4 sts, dc2tog, dc2tog, dc in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (10 sts)

32- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (10 sts)

33- Dc in first 3 sts, dc2tog, dc2tog, dc in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (8 sts)

34- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (8 sts)

35- Dc in first 2 sts, dc2tog, dc2tog, dc in remaining sts. Ch 2, turn. (6 sts)

36- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (6 sts)

37- Dc in first st, dc2tog, dc2tog, dc. Ch 2, turn. (4 sts)

38- Dc in each st. Ch 2, turn. (4 sts)

39- dc2tog, dc2tog. Ch 2, turn. (2 sts)

40- Dc in each st. (2 sts)

Make knot and weave in ends.

Attach button to one end, and make a buttonhole at the other. I just wrapped yarn around the stitches at the end to move them out of the way of the button. Depending on your button, you may not even have to do that.”

that’s it… hope you like it! there’ll be pictures when i get this blog-thingy figured out better/have more patience for that. PLEASE let me know what you think if you make this! either here or on ravelry!